puppy love

soft and sweet with four feet



our dog is such a little sweetie pie.  he brings so much unconditional love and fun into our lives everyday.  i never understood why "dog people" were a little bit wacko.  now i fully understand.  i have unabashedly joined the club. 




this is the face that turned me into a dog wacko



wake me up when winter ends

i have been in such a funk lately. maybe it is the never ending winter we are having? there's nothing quite like sitting in a dark deep freeze five months of the year trying to find your energy.  i have a shit ton of catching up to do in my anatomy and physiology course,  a ransacked closet to clean,  housework to do,  a job to force myself to go to and all i really want to do is curl up and hibernate.  i want to wake up when spring arrives with its hot sunshine and little birdies chirping, to the sweet smell of freshly mowed grass, the musky wet earth between my fingers. i could wax poetic all day about the things that i miss about spring.  hands down, i would say this winter has been the suckiest of the 34 i have endured.  if my husband puts up with me until the leaves start budding i will have some major cake baking to do and bj's to give. seriously. i might even throw in a foot rub or clean his truck.  that is, if we make it.  i am pretty sure he thinks i am going mad.  well, positively sure actually (he has mentioned that i may be going a touch crazy.  poor chap)  as i am writing this i am kind of chuckling to myself because of the ludicrousness of it.  or maybe laughing maniacally to myself is just another symptom of losing my marbles.  fuck, i'm confused now.
p.s. i never did quit smoking (referencing my last post).  ughhh. i know there is no perfect time to quit but right now would hands down not be the time to try going through withdrawal.  i would fear that my family would be pitching a tent in the bushes to get away from me. or worse, take me out back and shoot me like a rabid dog. (holy dramatic much?)

quitting is easier than...

Quitting smoking is easier than..
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- Easier than hearing your doctor say, "I'm sorry you have cancer. . ."
- Easier than fighting cancer.
- Easier than laying in the hospital having radiation treatment.
- Easier than breathing through tubes up your nose.
- Easier than having a Tracheotomy and snot coming out of it (gross).
- Easier than the surgeon sawing through your ribs to get to your lungs
- Easier than paying tons of money a month for inhalers
- Easier than the pain your kids will have to carry for the rest of their lives when you die
- Easier than your husband/wife/kids being exhausted from sitting in the hospital with you watching you fight death
- Easier than losing your vision
- Easier than COPD, asthma or lung cancer
- Easier than having a face full of wrinkles
- Easier than being fat and out of shape and too winded to exercise
- Easier than having stained, gross yellow and brown teeth
- Easier than feeling like you are the only one that is still stupid enough to smoke
- Easier than having a stroke and being put in a home knowing your husband/wife is dating other women/men
- Easier than wondering if the smoke in your mouth is "the one" that will turn one cell against you
- Easier than being broke
- Easier than stinking like smoke 24/7
- Easier than getting in your truck in -30C to go and get another 2 packs (which costs $25.....duh)
- Easier than laying in the hospital wishing you could feel the sun on your skin and the wind in your hair.
- Easier than looking out the window knowing you can't go outside anymore.
- Easier than listening to your loved ones crying outside your hospital room.
- Easier than researching for hospice care and feeling like a huge burden
- Easier than contemplating suicide so you don't have to suffer.
- Easier than losing your hair and being bald
- Easier than preparing for your funeral because the cancer has gone so far.
- Easier than picking out your favorite songs for your funeral.
- Easier than trying to say the right words because they will be your last.
- Easier than your child seeing you die from cancer.
- Easier than imagining your child without a Mom.
- Easier than realizing your child may need a new Mom in the future.
- Easier than not seeing your child's face because of blindness.
- Easier than telling your child you are dying because you smoked.
- Easier than your brother and sister losing you and having regrets
- Easier than imagining your spouse being alone and dating other women and her moving in & sleeping on your side of the bed
- Easier than tring to figure out how to tell people
- Easier than knowing you caused your disease and WISHING you had quit sooner
- Easier than having regrets that you didn't quit because you "knew" deep down it would take your life
- Easier than telling your parents you will die before them likely
- Easier than knowing you will never be able to sit on a beach, travel, go out for drinks/supper because you have an oxygen tank to take
- Easier than being wheezy, coughing up phlegm, sucking on inhalers (soooooo not hot)
- Easier than going through your photo album with tears.
- Easier than everyone talking about you in past tense.
- Easier than realizing smoking was more important to you than your life.
- Easier than thinking, "So this is it . . .?"
- Easier than dying . .
- Easier than getting out of the pool to go and get a smoke poking your feet with sharp stones as you walk to get one
Quit smoking now . . . start living life smoke free . . . addiction free . . .FINALLY BE FREE

DON'T LOOK BACK EVER!

THE PEOPLE THAT ARE SMOKING ARE NOT "LUCKY" THEY ARE TRAPPED AND ADDICTED AND CAN'T STOP BUT WISH THAT THEY COULD!! FEEL SORRY FOR THEM AND LEAD BY EXAMPLE!

BE AN EXAMPLE FOR THOSE PEOPLE- somebody has to quit first and show people that they can do it too

THINK OF THE MONEY THAT YOU WILL BE ABLE TO SPEND ON TRAVEL, NAILS, CLOTHES, HAIR, OUTINGS, BOOKS, NICE WINE

KNOW THAT YOU WILL LOOK BETTER, FEEL FANTASTIC, STRONG AND HEALTHY AND FREE FROM THE CHAINS OF NICOTINE!

december is magic