i have been in such a funk lately. maybe it is the never ending winter we are having? there's nothing quite like sitting in a dark deep freeze five months of the year trying to find your energy. i have a shit ton of catching up to do in my anatomy and physiology course, a ransacked closet to clean, housework to do, a job to force myself to go to and all i really want to do is curl up and hibernate. i want to wake up when spring arrives with its hot sunshine and little birdies chirping, to the sweet smell of freshly mowed grass, the musky wet earth between my fingers. i could wax poetic all day about the things that i miss about spring. hands down, i would say this winter has been the suckiest of the 34 i have endured. if my husband puts up with me until the leaves start budding i will have some major cake baking to do and bj's to give. seriously. i might even throw in a foot rub or clean his truck. that is, if we make it. i am pretty sure he thinks i am going mad. well, positively sure actually (he has mentioned that i may be going a touch crazy. poor chap) as i am writing this i am kind of chuckling to myself because of the ludicrousness of it. or maybe laughing maniacally to myself is just another symptom of losing my marbles. fuck, i'm confused now.
p.s. i never did quit smoking (referencing my last post). ughhh. i know there is no perfect time to quit but right now would hands down not be the time to try going through withdrawal. i would fear that my family would be pitching a tent in the bushes to get away from me. or worse, take me out back and shoot me like a rabid dog. (holy dramatic much?)
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